Photography assignment and how it was a total downer...

I was pretty excited about the whole assignment in the morning... The assignment : to shoot kids for a dance academy... i was all happy and confident with no homework (that was my first negative point)... So there i went, a bunch of kids, their teacher and some music... and i shot them... I come back home and see the results... and believe me its a disaster... it doesnt even look like they have been clicked by some amateur photographer... its like someone looked around, saw me, gave me the camera and asked me to click... a total downer... the witness to these photographs was M... and he had a lot of feedback to give... And am taking it all... M started with suggestions and they kept flowing... and he is right... I've to buy them all and share them too... His suggestions -

1. Do your homework... Google dance photographs and pick what you like... Study them... Read the articles on how they did it...

2. Have visuals ready in your head and then convey it to people you want to photograph...

3. Based on your visual, get the place of the shoot ready, be it background, lights, etc...

4. Trial rounds of photographs and then adjusting your camera settings accordingly...

5. It is not a dance session, its a photography session... They move according to what the photographer wants and not the other way round... Take command of the situations and get what you want out of the subject...

6. And if you go wrong, do the whole process again and not give up...

So taking the suggestions to heart, here i walk... tomorrow is another day, with the whole night left for me to study... :)

Outburst...

i guess the vacation was too long... What was supposed to be few hectic days at work, turned out to be a big vacation and i ended up not writing... i generally describe myself as impulsive and quick... And suddenly i am right now all that i have hated being all my life - lethargic, procrastinator, indecisive, forgetful, unfriendly, sleepoholic... None of this has been me and in my memory the past-me i've been vehemently against all this... Yesterday has been a day of reviewing, along with working on my scripts ofcourse... And i feel i am living a trashy life - two days back a friend called up and i realised that she was low but my work wouldnt give me the time to accompany my friend, and i smartly avoided... i didnt think at that time but have been getting guilt pangs after that... i was never a superbitch... i would have all my friends around me, they could reach me anytime they want and we could have a talk ranging from gossiping to philosophy of life... i don't remember having conversations with my friends in the last 3-6 months.... and thats long, going by who i am... And yesterday i had questions - life-changing according to me - is my work larger than my life...? My life was supposed to be bigger and better - a very small part of it was supposed to be labelled 'work' - and now its the other way round... i have to actually sneak out sometimes to find time for things i love... i have an unopened book on my side table since almost a month... i desperately wanted that book as i really wanted to read it... i dont manage as much time as to open it, let alone read it... And there are many more such things... What triggered all this is the sudden feeling of being uneasy... which led to reviewing and which led to this outburst... in which i realise i have been in love with myself in the past and suddenly i dont like what i see of me now... and i gotta make a resolution now - i know its not a new-year and neither it is my birthday - which generally mark making resolutions - but thats what i used to be and i want to be...